i feel like all we really want/need is like ONE person to totally open up to, with no fear of being left or let down, one person to really LOVE, to need, and to be needed in return, that's just as important if not more, and the longer we go without someone like this, the more sad and depressed we get, the more we long for this mythical person, we want this so bad that we fool ourselves, we let ourselves settle, we ignore things in this other person and fill in the spaces in our mind, we change this current other into what we really want, we convince ourselves that this could be it, and no matter how much wrong or how bad the relationship is, you stick with it anyway because you don't want the time you've spent to have been a waste and it's gotta be better than nothing right? and idk the answer to that.. but i know that this fooling isn't doing me any good, it's like worse than being alone, but i know that being alone SUCKS, all i want is this person, how long am i supposed to wait.. how long CAN i wait?