perhaps what scares me most
is that my fears are correct
and i really don't matter
my city really wouldn't know the difference
if i was 1,887 miles away
because that would mean i need this illusion more than anyone in it needs me
i don't want that
i don't want to be held up by something fake
pushed through each day
by fake smiles and pretend friends
all i want is assurance
that at least once
I will be missed
someone will think about ME
i don't mean this in a self centered way
not at all
because i will be thinking about every single person back home
countless times
all i want is to be remembered
so that all my time thinking
isn't a complete waste.

"Think of me,
Think of me fondly,
When we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while
Please promise me you'll try"