first thing's first

anything i put here
is put here for selfish reasons
this is for me
i'm trying to make sense of it all
hoping to find a way to use 'just words'
to work it all out
control the chaos
comprehend the confusing
organize everything going on in my head
and heart
if by chance you somehow relate to any of this
it is purely coincidence
if it helps you in any way
good
if not, don't hate
i am ready for you're rejection
your judgement means nothing to me
i am blind and deaf to you

i'm a mess to be made
these are just words