just blend in

if you can seriously walk into a room of your peers,
have everyone turn and look at you,
which is just a natural reaction when someone enters a room,
if you truly can face that, and remain confident,
you are either the bravest person i know or just plain stupid.
maybe you've just lived under a rock or something,
have never been judged,
seen it in the other person's eyes as they look at you and realize you are beneath them,
never watched as they mount their high horse, so they can look DOWN on you.
if you honestly have never had this happen, here's some advice;
sit down before you are put down.
build up your walls of protection.
start fashioning a myriad of masks for the countless encounters where you'll have to fake yourself or interest to stay secured.
i tell you this, not to be mean, but to help you.
perhaps if i had done these things BEFORE, it wouldn't have been so bad.
vulnerability is only for the strong.
the heroically strong.
that is not you.
you are weak.
to put your trust in someone, is to make yourself vulnerable.
heartbreak is born from the womb of trust and dies in the grave of eternity
i have heard it said that when you get your heart broken, what you gotta do is just love twice as hard the next time.
that is a lie.
there is no disappointment that comes if you never try.
blend in at best.
confidence is for the shallow-minded and ignorant
if you can seriously walk into a room of your peers.....