i do not feel in the form of words

words.
what an inadequate way to try and describe something as boundless and as undefinable as a feeling..
though perhaps it is just i that am not capaple of using said words in such a way that i can re-read it and go
yeah, that IS how i'm feeling
i know there are other people that use words much better than i do
and when they try and put feelings into words, they do it much better
and sometimes i almost perfectly relate to it
but it's still not quite right
anybody else know where i'm coming from here?
maybe it is this seemingly impossible task that keeps people writing.. striving..
to find the perfect words behind a feeling.. so far i haven't seen it yet..
they get close, dang they get close.. but idk..
well, this is what has been on my mind so this is what i will write about..
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i do not feel in the form of words
i do not feel in the form of verbs, adjectives or nouns
i feel in the form of.. the sight of my night-lit town,
from atop a nearby hill
where everything you see just doesn't seem real

i do not feel in the form of words
i feel in the form of.. long nights, often sleepless
restless slumbers, often dreamless
the cause is a mind that is stuck on one thing,
yet is spinning with too many thoughts to distinguish

i do not feel in the form of words
i feel in the form of.. mornings. just before the sun peers over the distant mountains
the sparkling water drops that fall from fountains
instead of words my feelings are the sounds of birds
who never seem to have a bad enough day that they can't summon their sweet songs

i do not feel in the form of words
i feel in the form of.. cotton candy and bubble gum
and knowing someone who'll give you some
the form of.. the circus and carnivals
of dc heroes and modern day marvels

i feel in the form of.. young love
a first crush, the thought of that person, and how it made you blush
the first time that your heart broke in two
and tryin to understand why she had done this to you

Of quiet twilights, and the still night air
like there's this whole wide world but you're the only person there
and you don't even care
cuz at that moment, you don't long for much
just the stars, the moon, and the grass' soft touch
it's your moment, you own it
and it's just for you
someday you may try and share it with someone but it won't quite be true

Of overcast days, which to me are the best days
cuz some times clouds mean there soon will be rain
and if you let it.. a storm can wash away any pain

and as i write, i realize
these words impersonating feelings
might just be lies
but maybe that's going to far
they are what they are
people manipulate them trying to use them to represent feelings
but that's like trying to see the sky through one too many ceilings

my purpose is not to stop people from trying
just like gravity don't keep people from flying
but at least for now, my belief is this
no words will describe the emotion behind a soft kiss

i do not feel in the form of words